Monday, August 31, 2009

MY FIRST LOVE




When I was a teenager,I keep on thinking,who will be my first love?
Would he be as loving and protective as my father?
Would he be as caring and thoughtful as my mother?
Would he be as naughty but sensitive like my brothers?

Would he be as handsome as my crush on television?
Would he be as friendly as my friends?
And so many would he be.....
I cant wait to meet him!

In the year 2003,in the month of May
I met a guy when I was a freshman in tertiary level
The first time I laid my eyes on him
I knew deep inside that finally I found him!

Although he was not as handsome as my crush
Still he was caring and thoughtful as my mother
Because during the times that I'm helpless
He was there to care and guide me

He was also loving and protective as my father
Because when I needed someone to protect me
Specially when my annoying suitors are visiting me
He was there with open arms

He was naughty but sensitive as my brothers too
When he cracked jokes on me or do some silly things
And he fells that I already had enough cause I'm starting to get mad
He would stop and hugged me

He was friendly as my friends too
Because he was the first person who
Made friends with me when I
Arrived at our boarding house

I wasn't expecting that I would fall for him so fast
I just felt one day that I'm missing
And longing to be with him EVERYDAY!
Then I just realized that I'm already in love with him!

He became my inspiration and strength
Specially when I miss my family
And I can't go home easily
I cause I do have class!

I'm thankful that though we are not a couple
Still he was my friend whom I can lean on during tough times
A friend whom I can laugh and cry with
But deep inside me, I was hoping that we can be more than friends

Way back in April 2005,my prayer was answered!
I didn't know that the feeling was mutual
I was shocked but delighted when he said, I LOVE YOU!
I have no idea that he cares and love me too until that very moment!

I was so happy that I even pinched myself
Just to know that I'm not dreaming!
I was speechless that i couldn't utter a single word!
All I did is hug him very tight!

Last May 2005,we became an official couple!
Our mutual friends were so happy for the both of us
Cause finally we ended into each others arms
And I can't disagree with them

There were no dull moments when I'm with him!
He really made me feel so special
Sometimes he would just hold my hand
And say something sweet that would make my heart bloated with so much joy!

I thought that our relationship will never end!
But I was mistaken and here comes my first broken heart!
We need to prioritized things
We do still love each other but we need to say goodbye!

I never believed that long-distance relationship will never work
Until I was in the said situation!
We decided to end ours though it's painful!
Our relationship lasted for about 1 and a half years!

During the first few months of our break up
I can't concentrate on my studies!
Every night I cry until I fall asleep
Then cry again first thing in the morning!

First broken heart is so painful!
I know everybody can relate to it
But as the saying goes,life has to move on!
And I did move on!

I moved on with my life
Mingle with my friends and new faces
Focused on my studies
And here i am now,a future teacher!

As the saying goes, time can heal
Time really heals cause the pain was gone
And to top it all, me and first love are still friends!

Though we do have our own lives now
We still managed to be friends after all
And stay in touch with each other!
Thanks to electronic devices!

We never know what will happen in the future right?
Maybe my first love/broken heart
will be my future hubby too!
Knock on woods!..